Illyriailly

So as time moves on and life does i begin to realize how childish i was growing up and independent I am my friends and family are nice to have but i have gotten mannerisms like a cat where I dont want to talk or anything just sit around and be near or when i want to be alone i have my car to drive off in to go sit somewhere else. I look back everyday and think about my old friends and people who i still consider friends but hardly talk to. As we grew up we grew apart and hardly talk anymore I miss talking to them alot but at the same time i realize that we need to grow apart just for the fact that if we dont we would never grow and become as

So today I figured its high time I get into the swing of coming here. Since I went back to school I havent had much time really. But anyway I have had a lot of crap go down. The one who I thought was special just wanted in my pants and he denies it! andhe said he would never be with any one but me while we where together and he lied! no surprise i guess. But I broke it off and now I'm happy. But now as I think what if I never go out with anyone. But I was told never to lie to myself and I couldnt be with him I didnt love him anymore. I go back to school and I can't get this guy out of my head even while I was with Shane my ex I thought abou

Well life is just fine and dandy. I find someone whom I would die for and would die if I had to live without him and he feels the same. But he wants to leave. ANd all he was saying last night was just tearing me apart inside. I miss him but he is sleeping. I dont know why but when we talk and are together I forget everything. I forget my problems and everything else. I forget where we are I forget what time it is year day month even. Time has no meaning when I'm with him. He is always on my mind and I cant get him out of my head. These past few nights I have had dreams about him but the could be more like nightmares if I got scared. But i do