So today I figured its high time I get into the swing of coming here. Since I went back to school I havent had much time really. But anyway I have had a lot of crap go down.

The one who I thought was special just wanted in my pants and he denies it! andhe said he would never be with any one but me while we where together and he lied! no surprise i guess. But I broke it off and now I'm happy. But now as I think what if I never go out with anyone. But I was told never to lie to myself and I couldnt be with him I didnt love him anymore.

I go back to school and I can't get this guy out of my head even while I was with Shane my ex I thought about him but I was just mean I guess to him when he tried to talk to me I just ignored him or didnt talk much and i know its wrong and stuff to not be nice but I was scared but I really want to get to know him.

I guess I'mone fucked up cookie? And on top of it all my friends told me they wouldnt be able to tell if I was depressed again and stuff and they said they wouldn't. *sighs* guess i can't show my emotions or listen to people and what they say anymore.